35 weeks

That's me today. Wow. Time is flying by, for sure. FLYING by.

Going to NST's twice a week. The good part about that is I get to lay down for 30-45 minutes.. YAY. LOL. It's also kind of fun to hear him moving around on the doppler that's place on you for that entire time. He still can move and I don't really feel him, weird.

Last ultrasound (last Thursday) showed him to be about 4lb 10 oz. He's growing just fine, thank you very much. He also measured right on for his size/due date.

I am SOOOO tired of people saying "you are so small". Grrrr. Everything you can objectively measure me by is right exactly on dates. I keep getting the implication with the "you're so small" comments that "you're not gaining enough to sustain that other life"". I know that most are not saying that, but that is how I feel at times. Yet another thing I'll put on my list of things not to say to people.

Near us, about 8-10 miles away, last Thursday were tornadoes. They estimate one of them to have been about 1/2 mile wide. A friend of mine was watching it (yeah, I know, she should have been in her basement) and saw 4 smaller ones sprout from the large one. One person died, many lost their houses.

There was also a dairy farmer who lost about 200 head of cattle when his 4 barns were destroyed. I heard that it was like a war zone where those poor cows were :(

Our new weather radio, however, works GREAT! It gave us the heads up on the tornado warning (where we live, we would never hear the sirens in town).

Another day, another NST (mostly pg related post)

I am currently 33w2d. Amazing. I can't believe that we're this far along. Finally hubby got the baby's room painted, and most of the border put up. We're doing a Classic Pooh theme (mostly, we'll also have some Disney Pooh hanging). We won't have the crib up until his parents get here in October, because they are bringing it from PA.

I go now for twice weekly NST's. So far, this guy has been great. Doing what he is supposed to do :). Had an ultrasound today, he weighs about 4lbs 10oz. IN the 40th percentile and measures right on with all the measurements. I'm very happy

I'm still working. I plan to work until I deliver, hopefully. Although I find myself exhausted at the end of the day. Sigh. OF course it doesn't really help that I'm busier than I've ever been. Last Friday I worked from 7:30am until midnight. Guess people continue to get ill and SOMEONE has to take care of them. Heh.

Don't have much more to say right now. I'll try to be better with posting, but not going to bank on it.

GD

That's what I've got. Stinks.

I'm 29w4d today. Had my 28 week checkup last week and along with that was my GTT test. For those of you who have not taken it, it is drinking this icky sweet stuff, then waiting one hour to get stuck. I failed. Normal is up to 140, mine was 181. My OB said that I could either take the 3 hour or be treated as GD. In his experience, if you fail the 1 hour that badly, you tend to fail the 3 hour.

Now with my job it is very difficult to take a 3 hour segment of time in the early morning to get stuck, drink sweet liquid, sit around for 3 hours and get stuck once each hour (without eating or drinking anything during that time). So I opted to be treated as GD.

Now I've only gained like 8 pounds this pregnancy so far. Which I feel weird about, but the OB has not been worried about. Much of that weigh gain came in the face of pastas, milkshakes, etc. None of which I can have :( Even with giving all that up, my fasting (morning) sugars have been higher than what they want to see. My 1 hour after eating numbers have been "close" but many have been a little over. So I think he was right :(

The scary part is it puts me a higher risk of developing diabetes in the future :(. Guess this is my impetus to lose weight after this baby is born.

On other fronts... Last week was hotter than a, well, hot. I live in Minnesota. Last weekend, temps were close to and in some parts, over 100 degrees. Talk about hot!

We did, however, go to the big baby store and register. We've also registered at Tar&et. Amazing what this baby needs, eh? It was fun though :)

Update

Well, it's been hot around here. It's not supposed to be this hot in Minnesota, is it? This weekend we're looking at 95+ temps and heat index of over 100. Yippee.

We also haven't had much rain around here. Did get a storm last night, but we sure need rain. I know the farmers are wanting some good soaking rains. Hubby was outside with the dog and came in and said, our grass is crunchy. Not normal!

Update on PG stuff:

Had my 28 week appointment yesterday. Everything looks good. I measure right on target. Have gained a whopping 8 pounds during this pregnancy. OB is happy with that so far. Cervix is long and closed and firm, he's happy about that too (as am I, of course)

Had my GTT today (1 hour) and failed :( 186 was my result, they like it under 140. My OB told me that in his experience if your 1 hr is that high, you tend to fail the 3 hour. So I get to see the NP and get started on a GD diet. Also, since being on lovenox (a blood thinner) shots since last August isn't enough, I'll get to do fingerstick blood sugars too. yippee.

All in all though, things are still going well. This little guy is a mover, that's for sure!

Assorted stuff

We have returned. The road trip was over 3K miles, but a lot of fun. I drove most of it as I love to drive and hubby can do other things in the car, like read. I cannot read in an auto. It makes me ill, ugh.

We managed to get through Chicago without much hassle, which is always a plus (on the way out that is). We did go to Game 1 of the Stanley Cup finals - awesome game, awesome time. So HAPPY the Hurricanes are the 2006 Stanley CUp Champions!

The friend's wedding we went to was great. The reception was ok. They had given the DJ a list of over 80 songs to play (IN 3 HOURS) what were they nuts? There was a huge thunderstorm which took out the power for a short while. Fun stuff :)

We then went to Hubby's parents where we stayed for 5 nights. His sister gave us gobs and gobs of stuff. Car seats, strollers, clothes, toys, LOTS. They also had a surprise baby shower while we were there, which was neat.

On the way back home, we stopped in my hometown and ate at my favorite restaurant. Luigi's. It's in Akron, OH and if you get the chance to go, go. YUM.

The trip back home was ok... just took over 2 hours to get through Chicago that time. BLECH.


PG ment:


Had my 25 week appointment today. Everything so far is doing well. I have been having a trace amount of edema, but OB not too worried about it at this point. Next visit will be with the 1hr GTT. Fun. I have an ultrasound scheduled for next Wednesday morning at 7:30.

Been feeling the munchkin move a lot. Some of the kicks are almost painful - it's the one's where it feels like he's rocking on my cervix. Yeesh.

Hope everyone is doing great!

Hot hot hot

Baby, it's hot outside. I live in Minnesota... it was 95 degrees today - in May! My goodness! Even our dog didn't want to go outside, and she loves it outside.

Not much else new. We're going on a big road trip starting next Saturday. Leaving to go to NC. Our friend is getting married. We're then going to go to PA to visit hubby's parents.

Should be fun. We have a new Civic Hybrid which gets great gas mileage (over 50mpg), but we're going to take our truck. Just can't picture me getting in and out of the Hybrid at 23/24 weeks pg. Not only that, the seats are not that comfortable on long trips, ouchie butt!

Besides that, I love my truck. It too, is a Honda. It's a Ridgeline, and even though it may look funny, it drives so like a car and rides great. None of that "bouncy" stuff that you feel in most trucks. It also has XM radio which will be key, since the Stanley Cup playoffs will be going on and we love us some hockey.

We're hoping that the Carolina Hurricanes get to the Cup finals - and we'll try our best to go to a game while we are there.

bad bad blogger

What is new with me? Not much. Just watching time fly. I cannot believe it's been 2 weeks since I posted something. Bad me.

We went to Florida last week (Wednesday to Monday). Orlando. Hubby was in a "competition" for school and I tagged along. It was nice to be the one laying in bed for a change as he had to get up and go early :D. He was in 3 competitions, got called on stage for all three, and placed 3rd in the one. Not too bad :)

My problem was my back. It started hurting Thursday morning :(. I've had back problems before and this was my normal back pain. OUCH. IT did get better before we left, but I didn't do much. But that was ok too. It was nice to be lazy!

I am currently 20w5d today. We had our "big" ultrasound last week. Everything measured right on to our due date (had the ultrasound on 20w2d and we measured at 20w2d!). Weight was 12 ounces (said that was 51st percentile). So we're dead on :)

BTW - it's a BOY! We're both happy with that.

I still think I just look fat. I don't look pregnant to me, but hubby thinks I look pregnant. I am wearing mostly maternity clothes, but can still wear some of my regular pants (2 pair).

So far, so good. We're moving close to that "viability" stage. Maybe, just maybe, we're going to get a real live baby out of this.

Monday - again

I have been the quiet one. Things here are going along fine... So far. I am working hard on enjoying this pregnancy, but I have to say it is difficult. It seems unfair to me that I have to WORK to enjoy my pregnancy, yet the majority get to just enjoy.

We did some yard work yesterday. Hubby HATES yard work... now let me tell you he KNEW that there would be a lot of yard work when we bought a house with nearly 12 acres, 6 of which need mowed and tended to. Men! I sat on the riding mower yesterday and got a wee bit burned, but not bad. It wasn't really hot out and yes, I was drinking my water :)

We're going to Florida on Wednesday. Hubby won some competition in school, and now is competing in the nationals. So he gets his trip paid for, and I only have to pay for mine :) I'll get to see him a bunch too, which will be nice.

Pregnancy talk:

I am 18w6d today. Amazing.

Had an ultrasound last week to check on my cervix. It is nice and long and closed. 4.3 cm long to be exact. Got the tech to look at the baby too. It was fun watching him move around :). Also looked to see if we could tell, and the "him" in the prior sentence is most likely correct! I'm pretty psyched, as hubby is the only boy in his family (he has 3 sisters, 4 cousins and 3 nieces - all girls). He is psyched too. We've been talking about names.

Had my quad screening done too. Still waiting for those results. We'll then get either a level II ultrasound or a regular anatomic survey, depending on the results. If we get the Level II, we have to go to the cities, which makes it a little more difficult to do, but not impossible :)

Hope you are all doing well.

Weird Dreams

Ugh. I hate my dreams. I always have weird dreams. Often I wake up and want to tell hubby about the dream, but it makes no sense, even if it made perfect sense prior to trying to tell.

Most recently I've had dreams about childbirth. Two of them. Both times I'm having the baby somewhere weird... like in a mall or in a restaurant. Each time it seemed rather "easy" strangely enough. Now I'm a great chicken. I'm awaiting to hear if our hospital is going to have epidurals prior to my giving birth.

Now, we have a very small hospital where we live. If there is any chance there will be any problems with the baby, then we'll go to the big city for birth. (or problems with me for that matter).

My dream last night was weird. I had a friend who had just gotten pregnant, and was showing me her pee stick. This was such a neat pee stick though... it gave you hcg numbers and also told you if you had a bladder infection (and some other things too). I had to take one to see what mine showed, and my hcg was quite high, and had no infection

Weird stuff!

Next visit is Wednesday. I'll be 17w1d then. YIKES.

Happy Easter

I've been trying to think of something to write about, but can think of nothing. I am quite the bore.

I have days where I think "wow", this is happening. I am 15w5d today. This is the first holiday ever that I've been pregnant.

We had some friends over for Easter dinner. I decided I wanted to make devilled eggs. I am a reasonably good cook, but damn, boiling eggs became an ordeal. Took two tries @@. But the eggs did turn out good in the end.

Hope that everyone had a good, or at least tolerable, Easter.

Update

Had my appointment yesterday. Got there at 2:50 for a 3:00 appointment. The lady at check-in says "you were supposed to be here at 2:30 for a lab appointment". Well, I failed mindreading 101, so didn't make it. They told the OB's nurses that I would be late (not really a huge deal as we -OB and I- are friends).

So had to get on that scale thing. I have LOST 5 pounds. Now I've had no true m/s, but can't always eat very much. OB not too upset, as I did start out a bit overweight. (Even given the fact I"ve lost weight, my clothes still don't fit).

Nothing much new on exam. BP good. Heart the HB again... that is the sweetest sound.

So far, so good.

Wow, time slips by. I've been somewhat remiss here.

Work has been quite busy. Then I've just been so tired when I get home. I've been reading blogs and there has been some sadness in the blog world. Julianne and Statia with their neg IVF cycles. Another loss at about 14 weeks.

Should I say I'm scared out of my mind right now? I'm at 14w1d. Scared spitless. Maybe I should invest in a doppler, but I can use one at work when I get the chance. But I would most likely be more comfortable at home.

Hubby has taken to putting his hands on my belly and saying "we've got a baby in there". How sweet is that? He is so good with kids. I've seen him with his niece and he is so patient with her.

I find myself having those damnned DBT's daily again. Why? I've been trying to listen to what Liana had to say. What she says makes so much sense. I should be rejoicing in each day of my pregnancy instead of worrying. It's just not happening for me yet. And that makes me sad.

The belly is still bruised from the daily injections of Lovenox. On the plus side, we've met my deductable on the HSA so the 2K worth of lovenox was mine for nothing. :)

Next appointment is tomorrow. Wish me luck.

Why is it SIL's are similar?

I was reading Barefoot and... blog the other day and she was talking about her SIL and how she seems to have no tact or regards for her feelings. In reading the comments, there were many SIL's who were similiar. Mine also.

In May of 2002, I had my first (possibly second) miscarriage. Hubby and I told no one about that pregnancy, because we were scared, rightfully so. But we were so happy too. I haven't been truly happy about a pregnancy yet, due to the miscarriage history.

In October, on our first wedding anniversary, we were pregnant again. this time hubby wanted to tell his family, so we did. He called his mom who was ecstatic for us. She then said, you have to call ****, and tell her. When we did, she told us that she, too, was pregnant. Yay for us.

The history goes, yes, that I had another miscarriage. SIL did not and went on to have a beautiful baby daughter in June of 2003. In the meantime, I had 2 more miscarriages (we had told his mom, but no one else).

Christmas Eve of 2003 when our niece was 6 months old, **** says to us "****** and I have news. We're expecting again! We are not sure of the due date or anything, kind of an "oops" baby." My response was "congratulations" and to go into the other room and try my damndest to not bawl. MIL realized I was upset and came in to try to console me (Hubby was there too). SIL said nothing, really.

Of course, we had to act happy at any mention of SIL pregnancy. Why is that? Why is it that those who have IF issues have to always be the ones who are careful of others feelings, not the other way around?

I haven't been blogging much lately because of these issues. I feel badly about those who either are going through their IVF cycles, IUIs, or who have had a loss. It makes it difficult as others have said before me.

From my perspective, I have not completely embraced the fact that I am pregnant. And that I am 12 weeks pregnant.

Have a great weekend all.

It's a Beautiful Day

Don't let it slip away.

Today I am 11w4d. Had my first OB visit on Thursday, which went swimmingly. I have gained one pound since my last visit there (which was in October). I don't really think I lost weight before transfer, so probably have gained about one pound. Although to look at my waist, you'd think I've gained much more. I think I'm going to have to bite the bullet and buy some maternity clothes soon. Scary, for me anyway.

We got to hear the heartbeat at this visit! I was so scared we wouldn't. The OB said, you are at the borderline, we may or may not hear it. SO when we did, I was quite happy. Scared at the same time, because somehow it makes it all a little more real.

Last weekend the weather was beautiful. Almost 50... which is pretty good for Minnesota in March. Then Monday we got about 8 inches of snow, followed by another 3 or so on Thursday. Brrrr. But today is warming up again. Crazy weather, I'd say!

Bad bad me. I haven't had much to say, or at least much that I could say.

I am 10w4d today. Hard for me to believe. Clothes are starting to be a little tight, so I went to Motherhood Maternity. Just could NOT bring myself to buy a damn thing. First off, I felt like an imposter. Secondly, I am afraid of the jinx. That if I buy *gasp* maternity clothes, I will somehow manage to piss off someone, somewhere and jinx things. Stupid, I know, but hey, who said I was rational here?

We took a few days and are in Duluth this weekend. We've been driving around and viewing the sights. This part of Minnesota is different than the rest in that it is nearly hilly! Very pretty too, I might add. I could come here for vacations in the summer too :) I don't go back to work until Tuesday! Woohoo :)

Not much else to report. I've been slightly nauseated, especially if I don't eat as soon as I feel hungry. Wanting to have sex with hubby, but afraid to. We indulged Thursday morning and that night I had a slight amount of spotting. Not much, but just a tad.

It is really nice to not be on the PIO. I wish I didn't have to take the Lovenox, but I do and so I will. I hate the bruising though :(

I feel so badly for Liana... she lost her baby this past week. I wish there was something I could do, but I know there isn't. I can't even leave a comment (probably because of the internet connection I'm using), but I am thinking of her and wishing her healing.

Nothing much to say

Just thought I'd write a little. There is nothing much new here. Spot has gone away for now, and I'm hoping it stays away. My hubby is out of town for a few days and I sure do miss him :( Especially at night. He's a great snuggler. Natalie, our dog, misses him more than I do, I think. She keeps running to the door to see if he's here. (BLOGGER STILL DOESN"T LET ME USE THE RETURN< WHY???)......................................... I still don't really FEEL pregnant. My OB appointment is the 16th, not sure I can wait that long! I'd like to thank everyone for their support, it has been wonderful.

Ultrasound update

We went to the RE's yesterday for our follow up visit. Of course it involved the dildocam/cootercam or whatever term you prefer.

We saw that BabyA had grown since we saw him/her on Monday. HB still strong. Just a little alien peanut there.

Baby B appeared to not have a hb at this time. So I think we can safely assume that there is only the possibility for one. I am sad, yet relieved that so far BabyA is still truckin' along without a problem.

The RE said that this is what they call a vanishing twin. There is typically not a lot of miscarriage like bleeding, that the growing baby kind of pushes the other baby out of the way until there is no more room.

I'm sure my OB will continue to check me with ultrasounds fairly frequently to make sure that there is no problems with BabyA.

The RE has released me from his care. I am to stop the progesterone on Tuesday (Monday being the last dose) and stop the estrogen also. Kind of freaky to just stop it cold turkey, but they do this all the time and have no problems.

I am currently 8w3d (they stop the meds at 9 weeks).

Oh, yeah, I'm spotting again >:(

Selling ports and other tidbits

Going all political.

Did anyone read about the sale of 6 major US ports to the United Arab Emirates that was OK'd by the current administration? This is the administration that feels it is ok, nay, it is their RIGHT to bug/listen in on phone conversations in the name of stopping terrorism.

Does anyone remember where many of the terrorist came from that ran the planes into the Twin Towers? Does anyone remember where much of the funding for said terrorist reportedly came from?

Yes, the UAE.

Is anyone scared? I am.

Seems the govenors of the states involved are concerned as well.

It seems the height of ridiculousness to me to kind of hand over the reigns of 6 majors US ports to the potential ENEMY.

Update - again

Well I am back. I took today off of work. Now home from my ultrasound. It appears that Baby A is still doing great with good development and good heartbeat (150's). However, Baby B looks smaller than s/he did on Thursday and my bleeding is probably coming from there. As to that, it has slowed down, but is still there. Mostly brownish, but still scary. Blogger still won't let me hit return or anything, which is dumb! I'm taking it easy the rest of today and will probably go back to work tomorrow. Thank you everyone for helping to keep me sane.

Scared

Well, the fear that we all have when newly pregnant (especially those who have had multiple m/c) is happening. I was doing fine, we had company for dinner and when I got up to go to the bathroom, I felt "something".
I'm having some bleeding. Not a huge amount, but enough (too much). It is more than spotting, but I'm not hemorrhaging.
I talked to my OB, he thinks it is probably the smaller sac/embryo. From things I've read, that makes sense. However, it is freaking me out. I'm taking tomorrow off of work and getting an ultrasound. I don't see a big reason to get one tonight as there really isn't anything to do anyway :(
Now to try to rest.
And fuck blogger for not letting me format.